i feel stupid

I can't come to the conclusion of if I will not let go makes me weak, or strong hearted.

eat sleep work drink eat sleep work drink drink work sleep eat drink

She burns as bright as the sun
and she falls darker than night
She shines as light as these days
And she fades faster than time

Running on 2 hours of sleep, and shopping all afternoon with my family had to be the weirdest thing I've been through in a long time. When the floors in Macy's started swirling, I knew it was time to go back to the hotel.

We're staying on the 27th floor of the Marquis in Time Square. Play tonight, Greenwich and another play tomorrow. Soho, Little Italy, and 5th Ave on Friday. Flea market on Saturday.

will do anything to make this stop.

what's the fucking difference, we all gonna die.

Sometimes I feel like I'm not... solid.
I'm hollow.
There's...
nothing behind my eyes.
I'm a negative of a person.
It's as if I never..
I never thought anything.
I never wrote... anything,
I never felt anything.
All I want is blackness,
blackness and silence.

Have mesothelioma and lung cancer commercials always been so prevalent during daytime t.v?

im losing my fucking marbles.

"And when we meet on a cloud..
I'll be laughing out loud..
I'll be laughing with everyone I see..
Can't believe how strange it is to be anything at all"

Love my friends, things have been very relaxed the past couple of days.

Party saturday - everyone come.

Got a new house today, and hopefully getting the rest of my shit in there tomorrow before I....

Leave for Atlanta to see Neurosis...

Coming back for a week to settle in and have a house warming party, make some money, play violin....

and leave for beautiful Asheville from the 7th-11th...

coming back and chillin until I start school on the 23rd.

All at once, but I'm not complaining.

Tonight was awesome - full of friends (constant reminder of why I really do love my life so much)
but also bombarded with stupid, drunk drama.

I haven't been so fucking happy in years. Keep it comin..


<3<3

Big backyards, personal bathrooms, and bein on my own.

hahahaha, vacation(s) is(are) gonna be amazing.

I got tipped in morphine today, and (technically) made an extra 8 dollars an hours. Let's hang out.

All I want to do is travel again, and let the mountains take care of me. Sick of this monotonous city life, and all the confusion that comes with it. Need a change, need something new - I've been stuck in the same scene of my life for the past year. I wanna learn to leave it, and for good. Cause it's stickin' to me, and suckin' me for everything I'm worth. And I can't tell if that's a lot, or not much at all. Maybe that's the basis of the problem.

Whoever decided to give my Dad some beer, surround sound and Iron Maiden Live in Brazil is a fucking jerk.

keeping busy when the sun is high,and hiding when it falls..
and i don't feel alone when i look up anymore..

I'll kick and punch until there's nothin left.